VERY tired

2 days of dayshift, i can feel bones cracking
i can see varicose veins
i can feel the muscle ache on my calfs
i can stand-sleep on mrt
i can sleep the whole night away on my sofa

I'm starting to feel "12 hour shift".
or maybe 14hour shift?

am i going to continue my life like this?
workin 14hour a day.
what does a nurse mean to me?
what lies in the future?

came across a ex-classmate blog
suddenly felt sad for her
no matter how detestable she were, she doesn't really deserve cold shoulders from the world
till the extend that she found no one even remembers her existence
i felt like showing my concern.
however, i held myself backed for some reasons

i dont know why am i saying this.

sometimes the thought of it makes me feel kind of sad
i found the urge to tear
however held myself back, in order to see your smiling face

how is it going to be like; ahead
i wish to know

i don't wanna be this way too.

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Saturday, November 29, 2008