hmmm.
went for nice tim sum buffet at yum cha today
with toh toh, xiangyao, ben, shuai sen and his gf. =)
thereafter we went for dinner with toh hsien yew's family.
but we didn't eat much lar. damn full can!
lols.
am going facial tomorrow. with my fat accompanying me.
and then to toh hsien yew auntie shop to collect my hair straightener which i bought... about $80.
and then to driving at ubi at 5pm.
hmmm. something random.
while watching e zuo ju 2 wen...
seeing how xiang qin practise IV cannulation, till the first time she went into a ward, first time touching a patient and first time she encounter "something wrong" with the patient...
i felt kinda... reminiscence..... of my student times.
the first time i went for clinical attachment.
that jittery feeling; i could remember it very clearly
and the passion from within that i used to remind myself of.
that is; a nurse-someone who really cares.
wearing that white and blue uniform...
after a day of sponging, changing pampers, doing all types of things.
though it was really busy and tiring.. but the sense of satisfaction is something that words cannot describe.
especially when someone tells u "thank u, i really appreciated ur help."
things were much simpler as a student.
but as u move on...
and as u don that blue scrub...
wearing that name tag, bearing the designation "STAFF NURSE"
things that u are supposed to do begin to increase
probably u are holding the phone and case notes more than u touching the patients.
and probably ur responsiblities increased so much that even toilet papers used up is of ur business.
people who used to appreciates u changes.. and probably u could only see "i wanna complain" on their faces.
be it staff or patients.
in the past when u were a student... the same staff would appreciate u so when u help out in sponging.
but now... even if u do... its just part of ur job.
but end of the day....
everything is still very worth-it; just for a simple thank you.
many of time, i would ponder to myself...
whether i still wanna stay in the nursing profession
a profession that doesn't really command the amount of respect a profession probably would have...
but often, people inspires me... to stay on
especially when i hear stories of nurses...
when i see someone whom i really admire alot...
and of coz..
xiang qin do inspires me.
though she chose nursing because of her husband...
but she did had a sense of passion in her, to help and to heal..
which touches me deep down =)
which reassured me...
nursing is what i wanna do for the rest of my life.
because I'm a nurse... a professionally trained nurse.
=))
just some random thoughts. probably something that i wouldn't really share much to my friends usually. because people dun understand nurses work.
they thought nurses just need to change patients and wipe backside. write some report serve some medicines and that's it...
but they didn't know that.. a lot of things are under our responsibilities.
maybe...
someone will blame u because their Xray is taking so long.
or even blame u why is their discharge taking 2 hours?
maybe even blaming u that y isn't the doctor coming?
but alot of time... things ain't under our control...
maybe the Xray department is full of emergency cases, or maybe the doctor forgot to order it in the system, that's y it is not done
maybe the doctor forgot to do the discharge summary or even because the pharmacy is too busy to dispense ur medicines; thereby delayed the discharge
maybe the doctor is busy with a resuscitation right now... and he just chided u for calling him so many times for a non-urgent headache patient.
well. too much grumble.
time to continue with my show.
at 4am in the morning =)
i shouldn't think of work so much because this is only the 3rd day of my 4days AL. lols
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Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
