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Thursday, August 21, 2008

its the first time i cried in the ward

not because of anything
but because of a idiotic ah ma.
someone who is not a nurse, not a doctor, not anyone but an ah ma who serves milo.

anyway i shouldnt elaborate on the story because i see no point.
she's just fucking idiotic. n i really really felt like slapping her damn face.

even the transport driver told me to scold her. (oh he's a very good uncle)
but just because i dont want to scold her infront of the patient's maid doesnt mean that i'll just let her scold lor. damn it. should have hack care.

and i can feel all my blood gushing to my face as thou its gonna explode anytime.
im just fucking angry lar
and i just uselessly cried in the ambulance like some helpless kitten.

but when i went back to 10a..
while walking back to the ward, i kept reminding myself not to cry.
but i actually burst out crying when i saw ilfan and janice.

and i really felt comforted when i saw them.
thanks=)

..
and i really feel that a lay person will never understand that kind of feeling.
to u, its just "no big deal" and u could just say ur piece to that ah ma.
but its.... just difficult.

my mood was rather affected and it got worse when he isnt too understanding....
arggg. frustrated.

but meeting up with my dear jane and catherine really made my day.

thanks friends.
because we are all nurses, that y u could put urselves in my shoes..

and.... i believe in karma...

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Thursday, August 21, 2008