Is it april fool?
i really hoped what happened today was just an April fools joke

firstly. uncle had a 1sided hemiparesis.
ok. i mean. i've kind of expected it
but when the news got into my ears, i actually found it shocking

well. hurried him to go to TTSH ED
and. well. my mum went to visit him straight after she's finished work

well.he's in the observations area when she's there.
so if there are visitors, she wouldnt be able to enter
so, as expected. she couldnt enter

she came backed home, still worried for his safety
and miss called him

when he return his call.
another shocking news came by
he's actually married and already had 3 children?!?

i mean. wad the fuck is that?
it means he's cheating my mum for 10 over years
im totally astonished over his lying skills

and on the other hand
im damn worried for my mum now
she emotionally hurt
and now. her work is affected
because usually uncle is the one who send her to and from work
now she has to travel all over Singapore by herself
and has to take care of my demented grandma

oh my god
pls say that this is just an April fool joke

this news,
is so damn shocking to me.
and i actually felt damn sad over it

wad the fuck
if im my mum. i dont think i can even take it

shit!
i think. love and marriages dont always turn out the way u want it to be
wad will happen to me in 10 or even 20, 30 years time
i really dont know
would i have a happy marriage
or, im just like my mother who's never never really been loved before
why am i losing trust in men and marriage.
I DONT KNOW.

y dont i have the means to help her lighten her burden
instead. im adding on.
wad the hell am i doing?

i just hope. that he gets well.
perhaps. its his retribution
but. i didnt want to see this happen at all
i tried to counsel him on his diet. however he refuses to listen

get well soon. im praying for you
no matter wad u did.
u deserve to get well.
no matter wad will happen in future.
i'll lend a helping hand if u really do need one.
i not sure why am i helping some1 who has hurt my mum so much
but.
perhaps this is human nature..........

get well soon.=)

she's the bravest woman i've ever known.
i think. she just didnt want me to worry.

life's fragile.

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Wednesday, April 02, 2008