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Today -------- 14/11/07
BAD DAY, GRUMPY DAY
Totally drained out~
Tired, exhuasted -whatever words that i can find to describe my feelings
since mon, i only had an average sleep of 5hours a day.
even on tue, i wanted to take an afternoon nap
but 15mins after i dose off, i was woken by my brother's super loud handphone rings
CAN U IMAGINE HOW IRRITATED I WAS?
i mean he have been home for 1 week lar.
nothing he do suits me lor
-he smokes in the house
-he treat us like maid and he dun do the dishes after eating
-he throw his things around and make the house damn messy
-his handphone rings in the middle of the night and its max vol lorr.
and it kept me awake lor
-he ransack my cupboard and use the adidas bag toh hsien yew bought for me.
-he stay at home almost 24/7
theres nothing that i can do about it
im damn irritated
and im too tired to comment
i just feel that. its no longer my home anymore
no longer a place where i can go home and sleep my head off when im damn troubled
no longer a place where i can go home and watch my favourite programme on TV
I JUST CANT STAND IT LOR.
say im selfish, say im fussy
i just cant compromise.
today morning shift.
nothing much
did alot of changing pampers
saw a dressing on bed sores (the patient had 4 of it! all stage 4)
nothing to look forward to.
only thing to look forward to is that im meeting tang after work
so that i can talk nonsense to her
chat with some1.
at least i can talk to some1 that im close with lorr
the whole day in the ward, just feel a need to talk.
thanks tang~ hahahaz
after work, met tang and emilia
went back to school for the oversea attachment presentation the rehearsal.
the lecturer actually commented that me and yuqing got london slang.
Please. i didnt even slang -.-
toh hsien yew messaged me and ask if i wanna meet him after my rehearsal.
i asked him a few questions and i assumed that he's waiting for me.
but when i called him after my rehearsal, he actually went out with his friend for a swim
he told me " how i know that u wanna meet me?"
i was like-if u unsure can at least ask me isnt it?
even so, you could actually tell me that you decided not to meet me.
this isnt the first time happening
you know, this SUCKS.
the feeling of anticipating that im meeting toh hsien yew after rehearsal
and we could go out for dinner
its like...all dashed lorr.
he used to tell me he'll pick me up from work or school
i will be damn looking forward for school or work to end because i know i'll be seeing him
but in the end, when i made my call to him,to actually realise that his still sleeping.
do you know that this feeling SUCKS?
i seriously hate that.
i dun like him being irresponsible
and he can jolly well enjoy himself everytime even though he knew that im unhappy
well perhaps its my problem.
perhaps i had some hormonal imbalance
perhaps im sick in the head.
im just depressed.disappointed.disillusioned.
ps. theres no use saying sorry
the word sorry needs to be said with a meaning
not just saying it for the sake of making yourself feel better
colours added @
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Thursday, November 15, 2007
