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Thursday, November 29, 2007

presenting to you- my toh hsien yew!

he's going to kill me!

hahahaha!

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Thursday, November 29, 2007

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

What have i been doing???

i've been neglecting my blog for 10 days. hahaha!

-.- itz call-- fatigue! and of coz its that...im lazy~~

well....

25/11/07-Sunday

Am duty

imagine that i've to work on a sunday

what a "good" job

hahahaz

but work today was slack

but im sick!!!!

my voice is so husky and dull. -.-

somemore will go out of tune 1.

all thanks to all those hearing impairment patients that i took care on saturday

practically raising my voice to talk to them when i had none!

B1 ward plus a sunday.

BORING.

hahaz.

after work i went orchard with toh hsien yew

shopped around =D

Mon-26/11/07

Session with Lay hoon again

8-4pm today

met up with jes, tang and carmen.

hahaz.

they were laughing at my sexy voice lar!

BUT....it was...

nice nice nice!

love this RARE gathering chance that we had

thou the lecture was damn boring that im on the verge of falling asleep

but i saw tang dozed off beside me.

hahahaz!

and i accidentally kicked her

then she stared at me! hahahaha! so fierce.

carmen was falling asleep also...

then i...

pinched her~ to keep her awake

i so kind, she still scold me

so bad 1. stupid wu jia man! hahahaz

we had MOS for lunch.

tog with jessica's fren-jane and eileen.

and went back to that boring place.

after that. went to CWP with toh hsien yew

ate at siam kitchen

that dinner cost $50++

and their masters machine spoilt

and toh hsien yew had to run down to ATM to get cash. -.-

and we got a free dessert that we hardly touched it.

coz we were so damn full.

caught Enchanted.

lovely show.

i tried to imitate the girl singing

but was only laughed at by toh hsien yew because of my husky voice.

i believe in happily every after.

but i wan a maid to do my chores

i wan to work after getting married

to wan to have a kid early because i dun wan generation gap.

hahaha! im just dreaming lar.

tue-27/11/07

Pm duty.

Im a FULL PLEDGE AN today!

theres no AN.

and im that AN.

-.-

it was busy lor

so many changes.

so many call bells

i think i have ringing in the ear---from call bells.

hahaha! but ok lar.

i just hoped that i can take case soon.

wed-28/8/07

AM duty

again im the AN.

not very busy today

just that i couldnt find pyjamas for the patients in the morning.

it was quite a saddening day for me today.

seeing the patient that i had nursed for almost 3 weeks...

....

haiz. life just had to go on.

well.

i may be able to take case. just 1.

-.-

better den nothing larz.

dun laugh at us ok

we will be COMPETENT ANs.

hahaha! 4 weeks of training

went to pizza hut with toh hsien yew.

we saw a teaching bring a group of pri sch childrens to pizza hut

suddenly we talked about our pri school days

realised. we were so pure and without worries then

made me really want to be a pri sch teacher becoz i wanna go back to that innocent life.

hahahaz

and i realised toh hsien yew is so much cleverer than me

coz his maths results always topped in his school.

he could even go to EM1 but he choose to stay in EM2.

whereas im no where near.

lousy! hahaha!

but im happy with my life now.

because i got toh hsien yew.

i have all my friends

-esp tang and jes. not forgetting xunci, and all my poly mates-like wu jia man etc

because of them i have a reason to smile for.

to tang:

you do made our day with your ugly actions.

but thats not the only reason why u made our smile.

you made our day because u truely care. haha~

wishing u all the best

hope that smile always stays on ur big head

happily every after

it will be a hourly para soon.

it will...

dun be so sad.

we are always here for u. hahahaz

to laugh at u~!

Anyway.

im going KL with toh hsien yew

he's bringing me to KL to shop!!!

how sweet

i hope he can find a nice agency

and find a coach with a toilet.

if not later got UTI.

hahaaz.

lovesss. i love every 1

i love u toh hsien yew

i love u teng siew furn

i love u yap tang wee

i love u chiang xun ci

i love u wu jia man

i so loveeee everyone. hahahaha!

my voice is still so un-normal.

my patients cant hear me when i talk.

USELESS!

my only hope in regaining my voice...

my face is still peeling because i've just changed the products in the dermatologist.

UGLY!

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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Sunday- 18th november

went to orchard with toh hsien yew.

before going, he cook him cambell soup maggie mee for me. hahahz

then, we walked around and was damnnn tired

for no apparent reason.

so.. our shopping ended at about 6+

hahaz.

we went home and we saw ivoy.

hahahaz~

tue-20th november

its me and toh hsien yew's anniversary- 3 years and 8 mth

hahaz~

i went to the toa payoh clinic to see the dermatologist before going to work

Well..

i can only say that the shift was sooo busy

dramatic in a sense.

i feed the patient via NGT

after the NYP lecturer came in and said hi

THE PATIENT BEGAN THROWING UP

projetile vomiting!

damn. i was worried that it was me.

was worried that the tube wasnt in the right placement

but i really did checked the placement and the PH was like 2.

was really worried that the patient might aspirate

coz he had a tracheostomy and the milk seems to be going in

luckily we did the suctioning in time

but after that i wasnt the 1 who feed but he patient continued to throw up.

-.-

damn worried can!

met toh hsien yew after work

and was like rushing home fast fast

coz tml im morning shift

hahaz~

overseas attachment presentation tomorrow. =/

seems to be having sore throat.

wed- 21th novemeber 2007

morning shift

i woke up and found my body to be aching and a terrible sore throat

took 2 panadol. hoping that it will have some effect

went to work.

was damn irritated by the HCA that was attached to me

i was busy lar can.

im doing dressing, taking parameter for 3 cubicles, feeding NGT, bathing a patient

AND SHE DARE TO COME OVER AND TELL ME THAT I WAS TOO SLOW

because i didnt help her in bed sponging.

pls lar. in the first place she didnt even tell me that she was doing sponging

i even told her that when she going to do sponging den tell me, i will help her

secondly, all the staff nurses are asking me to help them with this and that.

then wad she did was that she open the curtain when i was doing dressing for the patient because the dressing was wet after the bath

and she said. " WAH u do NGT feeding, take parameter, now u also wan to do dressing?"

" den who help me do sponging?"

i said " ok im coming after my dressing. im finishing already"

she said " no need lar! you so slow!!!!"

@#!$@#!$ sickening!!!! i do so many thing she only do bathing and sponging still say me!!

@#!@$#!%$#%#

irritating

other than that my day was quite ok.

oh ya.

there was 2 CI asking me questions here and there.

quite scary.

haha

luckily i can answer their question on what is dopamine etc

they even asked me to schedule drip infront of them

then follow me to see me feed NGT

ask me off drip.

teoow! hahahaz

went to school after work for the overseas attachment presentation

im feeling dammmn sick at that moment

sore throat+feverish -.-

changed into my formal wear. ( i couldnt be bothered to wear super formal-hahaha)

presented to all the various hospitals educators or director

and the NYP nursing director etc

it was ok.

then again, they commmented that yuqing and i had british ascent.

wad only.~

hahahaz

well. i was basically hoping that the presentation will end soon

coz im having fever chills in there and i felt really terrible

after the presentation, i headed home

even though the wanted us to go for the refreshments and mingle with the hospital directors

met toh hsien yew at woodlands and he sent me home

i took a bath and i can feel all my goosebumps

i was shivering after that larz.

i just took 2 panadol and slept.

it actually helped. =D

im better when i woke up

=DD

Thu-22nd novemeber

morning shift again

today wasnt busy because im at team 2

slacker team

they lack of AN and wanted to put me in charge of team 2 AN

but suddenly they found the "agency" nurse.

hahaz.

bought donut factory for toh hsien yew for his "breakfast" after work

because his lesson was at 4

so when i called him, he just woke up.

hahahaz~ wad a pig.

im still recovering from my fever and sore throat.

luckily tomorrow is a day off for me~

=DDD

congratesssss!

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Today-17/11/07

On afternoon shift today again~
met tang before going to work

that silly girl lost her Ezlink+ATM card and her $20
omg. i seriously hope that she can retrieve it.
its like damn senseless to make another copy of the ezlink card.
but the concession is damn wasted.

wah lau...damn draggggggy lar the time in the ward.
i seriously have NOTHING to do.
coz in my ward, is the staff nurses who are in charge of the parameter
soooo,....im soo damn free
till i very "initiatively" asked to take the hourly parameter for the patients.
hahaz~ then the staff nurse kept telling me that its not time yet -.-

actually wanted to meet tang for dinner at 5
but damnn!! i suddenly got a dressing to do
by the time i've finished, its already 5.30
and she already bought her dinner upstairs

ok lar. i watched fu man ren jian while having my dinner.
hahaha!

OH YA!
i was harassed by patient again~~ @!@$#@$!#@
Theres this malay patient
about 20??
with tatoo all over his body
and looked "malay ah beng"
yesterday while taking his Bp, his family told me that he wanted my number
but i just brushed it off and "act gong"

Sooo...today!
he's discharged
AGAIN, his uncle (a young uncle) asked me for my number.
i ignored them once again and i "acted" busy at the nurses counter
sooo when i saw him walked out of the ward in the CCTV, i was relieved lar!!!

BUT THEN!
he actually called up the ward to look for me lar can!
@#!@#$#%$
i thought lecturer called me or wad!

he kept asking me to give him my number and i refused
so he told me to call him instead
and i wanted to brush him off by saying yes
he actually asked "is that a PROMISE?"
wah lau.
im sooo damn scared he'll come up to the ward and look for me
so i told him that im only here for a short while.
and i hung up saying that im busy now.

wah lau~ its NOT A BLESSING AT ALL!
its scary lar can. -.-

anyway. shift ended
i accompanied toh hsien yew to have his dinner at KFC
wah lau. he think he feed pig lor.r..
he ordered buddy meal lorr...
sinful!~ -.-

went to buy tickets for movie- game plan
then i went back home to bathe and went out again

its a nice show lar.z.
funny, touching.
fatherly love show. hahaz
=))

finally day off tomorrow.
going shopping-heees
mon day off too!!
heess

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Sunday, November 18, 2007

Thursday, November 15, 2007

15/11/07

Off day today..yeepiesss

went out with toh hsien yew

hahaz

went bugis

just for a short while

but had fun laughing

jokes about fishes, lion dance etc.

he's forever so ugly.

maybe i just couldnt stay angry with him for long

useless.

ugly toh~

HAHA! im trying to imitate someone.... :PPP

he's as fair as i am. -.- (bai zhan ji)

hahahaz~

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Today -------- 14/11/07
BAD DAY, GRUMPY DAY

Totally drained out~
Tired, exhuasted -whatever words that i can find to describe my feelings

since mon, i only had an average sleep of 5hours a day.
even on tue, i wanted to take an afternoon nap
but 15mins after i dose off, i was woken by my brother's super loud handphone rings
CAN U IMAGINE HOW IRRITATED I WAS?

i mean he have been home for 1 week lar.
nothing he do suits me lor
-he smokes in the house
-he treat us like maid and he dun do the dishes after eating
-he throw his things around and make the house damn messy
-his handphone rings in the middle of the night and its max vol lorr.
and it kept me awake lor
-he ransack my cupboard and use the adidas bag toh hsien yew bought for me.
-he stay at home almost 24/7

theres nothing that i can do about it
im damn irritated
and im too tired to comment
i just feel that. its no longer my home anymore
no longer a place where i can go home and sleep my head off when im damn troubled
no longer a place where i can go home and watch my favourite programme on TV
I JUST CANT STAND IT LOR.
say im selfish, say im fussy
i just cant compromise.

today morning shift.
nothing much
did alot of changing pampers
saw a dressing on bed sores (the patient had 4 of it! all stage 4)

nothing to look forward to.
only thing to look forward to is that im meeting tang after work
so that i can talk nonsense to her
chat with some1.
at least i can talk to some1 that im close with lorr
the whole day in the ward, just feel a need to talk.
thanks tang~ hahahaz

after work, met tang and emilia
went back to school for the oversea attachment presentation the rehearsal.
the lecturer actually commented that me and yuqing got london slang.
Please. i didnt even slang -.-

toh hsien yew messaged me and ask if i wanna meet him after my rehearsal.
i asked him a few questions and i assumed that he's waiting for me.
but when i called him after my rehearsal, he actually went out with his friend for a swim
he told me " how i know that u wanna meet me?"
i was like-if u unsure can at least ask me isnt it?
even so, you could actually tell me that you decided not to meet me.

this isnt the first time happening
you know, this SUCKS.
the feeling of anticipating that im meeting toh hsien yew after rehearsal
and we could go out for dinner
its like...all dashed lorr.

he used to tell me he'll pick me up from work or school
i will be damn looking forward for school or work to end because i know i'll be seeing him
but in the end, when i made my call to him,to actually realise that his still sleeping.
do you know that this feeling SUCKS?
i seriously hate that.

i dun like him being irresponsible
and he can jolly well enjoy himself everytime even though he knew that im unhappy
well perhaps its my problem.
perhaps i had some hormonal imbalance
perhaps im sick in the head.

im just depressed.disappointed.disillusioned.

ps. theres no use saying sorry
the word sorry needs to be said with a meaning
not just saying it for the sake of making yourself feel better

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Monday, November 12, 2007

12/11/07- Monday

PRCP!

wow. the long awaited day man.

Remembering the first day when i first step in NYP as a nursing student.

Its seems just like yesterday only.

PRCP is a 3 month attachment in hospital

and its the crucial period to decide if u would pass out as a NURSE.

Today...

went into the lecture theatre of ttsh.

listening to the clincal educator talking about PRCP.

gosh. that kind of feeling is simply undescribable.

Im looking forward to it- to being able to function like wad a nurse should be doing

but im also fearful of it.

Hence. i decided to heed to clinical educator's advise.

Not to be afraid of making mistakes

Not to be afraid of asking questions even if it means to be laughed at

Be confident because i know i can do it

Be more vocal

Talk louder

haha~

the stupid test ( which is like damn wu liao lar. its not v difficult. but its damn lame when she asked about the parts of the tracheostomy- which nursing student on earth would know that?? hahaz...definitely not me man)

i went causeway with jes and tang

toh hsien yew joined us after that.

Its forever fun to talk to the 2 girlss.

i love gathering sessionss-haha~

we went to buy muchie donuts. hahaha!

it was kinda embarasssing when we bought 1 donut each. hahaz

but the donuts was quite nice. but its damn messy eating it

meeting my 2 dearest tml to go to work together

im going to 10A

tang going to 5C

and jes... CDC -got poison ar~ hahahaha!!!

and carmen...ke lian de her...going rehab..

all the best to u huh

at least got $$ take
not so bad lar huh!

hope u enjoy ur posting!!!! lovesss

10/11/07-Saturday

went hari raya-ing with mates today!!!

ppl who went

carmen

winnie ye

maureen

suyi

james

fiona

zaf

nisa

azidah

wani

susma

andy

seishen

met carmen at 11.15 at woodlands and we headed to jurong.

haha. we waited till 12 for arz then we took a bus to zaf's place.

she sooo sweet lar..

she cooked fried rice for us

somemore got desserts de lorrr..!!
hahazz~

suyi and andy (the 2 jurong ppl joined us at zaf's place)

then we headed to nisa's place next

was at choa chu kang.

this time suyi went to watch movie
and we slacked around for awhile then we set off to the next house about 3pm

lovely andy~

world most irritating-winnie ye

me and wu jia man~~~

me fiona susma and azidah

me and fiona (the potiential pantene hair model- coz she got such long and black hair)

we went to arz place (at Eunos larr)

her mum cooked curry chicken for us larr...

den there's so much variety of breads lar... hahaz

her house is a good place to take picturess and we really took alot of pictures there.

coz her house is like a mini museums
got alot childhood things (like five stones lar... the games lar...)

me and my dearest lao po~

my 2 chou shi partner~

then the last place was wani's place.
at paya lebar

me,mau,fiona,winnie carmen took seishen's car over

and her niece and nephew were there and they were damnnn cute!!!

suyi came back from her movie

hahaz...

we went home at about 10.30

i wonder will be have this raya-ing again next year

how many gatherings will be have together??? hahaz

i miss all my poly school matess..

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Monday, November 12, 2007

Friday, November 9, 2007

Thursday 8/11/07

Met up with my wu jia man...

hahaz. because she wanted to buy a dress for saturday (hari raya-ing)

sooo...we went to bugis.

we shopped for few hours. wu jia man only like semi-formal dress.

hahaz. i bought a dress there again~

whahahazzzz.... (dress fever lar)

den we went over to bugis junction-sasa

hahaz.. bought a mascara for $24 (the fiber fiber 1..that sasa "famous" product"

den wu jia man bought the eyebrow pencil.

hahazz~

then we went over to orchard.

we both were hungry ...

so the 2 hungry ghost went over to the japanese resturant at taka.

the things there was quite cheap lorr...i always thought its some high class restaurant

we ordered alot of food

we also ordered the dessert. the dessert got fibre lorr...got orange. hahahz
she say i v wu liao when i told her the dessert got fibre -.-

hahaz

and the bill total up to $44.

hahaz...gluttons

1 thing good about going out with wu jia man is that we both eat dinner early.

like 5+ ??!?

haha~~~

we went over to far east after that.

hahaz... continued shopping for her dress

and finally she bought her "hole hole" dress at pandora box. $36

then..while wu jia man was trying her dress, the sale girl suddenly talk to me

she ask where i bought my guess bag and she said it was very nice.

den she was damn sad when i told her that i bought it long ago

hahaz...i can sell it to her de lorr..hahahaha~

i bought another belt for myself. happy!~

haha. and we went home after that coz ke lian de her

tomorrow still must go ang mo kio hosp for attachment

after that toh hsien yew came to my house and drove me to his house.

haha.z...z

i went to play MJ at his new house.

alamak..i damn sway yesterday larrr....

i lost $10

somemore horr...i throw wad card den i get wad card back.

my card hor... -.- lousyyyy

got even once, i throw 3 fa cai consecutively
then that toh hsien yew so irritating lorrr...

he see my card then he tell every 1 wad card i wan. angry~~~~!!!!

anyway...so sway. just not a day to play MJ..hahaha~

woke up at 10am

and be his maid. !!!

have to pack his room for him and iron his clothe.

he say wanna bring me go McDonalds eat breakfast den in the end become lunch.

im just a maid that has no breakfast!

hahaz

we went to that ah mei cafe.

liew. i think he hungry dao.

he ordered 2 set of toast set and 2 egg prata

den he blame me for not eating the toast.

i only said i wan toast, i help him eat prata,he still say me~

wad a idiotic pig

hahahazzz

later later...i wanna go gym...

i wanna go on diet..

im fat, im obese, im at high risk for coronary artery disease

im must save myself!!!!

im disgusted with the way im now.

some1 pls save me!!!

T.T

very soon, i might have a "auntie" figure soon.

ALAMAK!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

-depressed-

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Friday, November 09, 2007